I just don't get it, but I do get it. Why I do not understand is the Why's of everything. Why can't I know? Why won't they tell me? Why am I being asked questions I do not know the answer to? This is what I do not get.
I perfectly know what confidentiality is and what its "Terms and Conditions" are. I do not need to be told, "I'd tell you but its confidential" seven hundred thousand times (I apologize for the dramatics in the previous statement. I was only actually told this about 5 to 7 times. But nonetheless it has still sent me into a angry frenzy of sorts)
I feel like they think I cannot be trusted with information of whatever caliber it is. That I will judge this person differently if I am told. I'm neither of these things, that is not me. I thought by now that would be a fact and not just a thought. I care deeply about these people and to know there is something wrong and not knowing what it is hurts me, it really does.
I want to help, but I can't help if I don't know what I am up against. It is like going into a battle without know the level of technology the others are fighting with. Swords don't go up against tanks and win. That just doesn't happen.
All I want, is something bigger than a sword. Big enough so I can take down that tank in the long run.
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