You know that feeling when you know something bad is about to happen and you get that lump in your throat? The same one you get when you're about to cry. You see, I really need to say something but there is no "nice" way of saying with I need to say. Something will offend someone in the end. It always does. If I say what is really on my heart I will probably lose a friend. What my dilemma is, is asking if she was really my friend from the beginning, or just friendly competition. Recently, this friendly competition is turning into a bloodbath words. There is no love or words of friendship! I know how it feels to be truly loved and how it feels to know when youre wanted. Right now I don't feel wanted or loved. I feel degraded and worth less than I'm actually worth. You talk about people like they are are pieces of poop. Everything needs to be centered around you and nothing can happen that you do not like. I am I humming to myself, what's so bad about that ? I do not like to be bossed around , that just makes you look like a bully. I thought I was doing a good job trying to keep this is just a float. But is this is a sinking ship worse then the Titanic . What's even worse is i do not even see any life boats around.
DISCLAIMER: I WROTE THIS ABOUT A MONTH AGO AND I NO LONGER HAVE SOME IF THESE FEELINGS. I THOUGHT THAT SOME OF THE LANGUAGE WAS POETIC THUS ME ACTUALLY POSTING IT.
