Hole

I sleep to dream you, just to hold you
in my arms before the morning light shines through
In my dreams your love breaks all boundaries
but when I awake, there are still barricades
So many words are being left unsaid
and each word, a tiny hole in my chest.
You can see right through me now
eventually it will be like you never even saw me
Even now when I see you
I feel you don't see me.
They say "Give it time"
Time does not heal all wounds
Time is just a number
Time is not a hug, or a calming word
Time is just a number
Time is something you won't give me
I want to be able to breathe again.
I have no lungs around you
I want to get my words out, right
I have to improve the silence
You have no idea whats running through my mind
But I want you to know

The Creative Process

A short poem

A blistering cold fortress surrounds my every move
mother nature has forsaken me once again.
She's ruining my festive plans
A meadow beckons my name
I wait to see it in its new white blanket
A family awaits my arrival.
I wait to feel their loving warmth

"Believe that every person is born with talent" Maya Angelou

Dave Matthews Band - Where Are You Going

Where are you going?
With your long face
Pulling down
Don't hide away
Like an ocean
That you can't see but you can smell
And the sound of the waves crash down

I am no Superman
I have no reasons for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go?

Are you looking for answers
To questions under the stars?
Well, if along the way
You are grown weary
You can rest with me until
A brighter day and you're okay

I am no Superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go?

Where do you go?
Where are you going?

Where do you go?

I am no Superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is here you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go?
Tell me, where are you going?
Where?
Well, let's go

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I recently fell in love with this song. It flows so well and is one of those songs that you put on to kick back and relax.

For the First Time

I prayed before I sang. My dad use to do this before every solo he ever had and, for as far as I can remember, he was always spot on and beautiful. He did this because he always got nervous but then he remembered that everything was in God's hands. This lifted his burden of having to do it perfect for the congregation and instead focusing on the Lord. Tonight I took my dad's advice and it worked. I really prayed to Her before I went up to sing. Another first was that went I went up to sing I did not start to shake like I always do. I was calm and happy and I actually felt relaxed like I do when I sing in front of my parents alone. Needless to say, I'm going to be putting my singing into Her hands more often.

My Constants

                My life is constantly changing around me with new people, new problems, and new situations every day. However, there are things that I know for sure that will not change, and they are the bracelets that I wear around my wrist everyday. Each bracelet has and meaning and memory of its own that reminds me every time I look down at my hand. The bracelets are a variety of types such as silly bands, hemp, friendship bracelets, and a watch. I could write forever about all of my bracelets, so I will only focus on the sillybands.

                My first bracelet is a pink, glow in the dark, sea star silly band. It was the first thing I ever received from the camp I attend, Camp Johnsonburg. I was working in the pool assisting the lifeguards when a little camper came up to me and gave me this silly band. I asked around to other campers to see if anyone had lost one but no one responded, so onto my wrist it went. Before this event I thought that silly bands were stupid, flimsy pieces of rubber and a ridiculous waste of money without any use other than to start fights among small children. Now, I have three different ones that would make me cry if I ever lost one.

                The second bracelet is a blue, glow in the dark, canoe shaped silly band that was given to me by my LT sister Julie Wallwork after a “tragic” even happened. It was during the first week of out LT summer together when Julie took off all her sillybands to go into the pool and gave them to the lifeguard for safe keeping. The lifeguard put them in his pocket with a camper’s sillybands without realizing. What happened was the camper went back to the lifeguard for his sillybands, but instead of just giving the camper his own sillybands he gave him all of the sillybands including Julie’s. She only had around six but they all meant something different and were special to her nonetheless. The lifeguard was upset that he messed up big time so to make it up to Julie he went out to a store during the weekend when staff had off and bought her a twenty-four pack of glow in the dark, camp themed sillybands. Julie was very happy that he did this for her and decided to share the wealth with her LT siblings. There were trees, canoes, teepees, bears, squirrels, and moose to choose from each in blue, pink, orange, or green. I chose the blue canoe because it reminded me of the lake at camp and I also just like the color blue. Julie chose to keep the orange teepee and until this very day it hands from her keys.

                The last sillyband I have is a green alien and the only one this is not glow in the dark. This sillyband was the only one not given to me directly at camp. The sillyband was originally my LT sister Katie’s from a pack of special edition Toy Story sillybands in honor of Toy Story 3 that was coming out in movie theatres. She got the sillybands from her secret friend during week three of our LT summer. During that third week she let our LT siblings have a sillyband if they wanted one, but I never did because I always forgot to ask her for one. After we all left camp my LT family and I planned a mini reunion at Katie’s home up in Howell the weekend before school started. While we were at the reunion and in Katie’s den I saw the sillyband. I wanted to add in to the sillyband collection on my wrist so I asked Katie if I could have it since I never got one during camp and she was happy for me to have it.

                Each sillyband has a meaning and a memory that I think of whenever I see it. The pink sea star reminds me of the generosity and love I get at camp. The blue canoe reminds me of my LT siblings, especially Julie, and all the amazing adventures we went on the three glorious weeks we were together. Last but not least, the green alien reminds me of my siblings and the reunion and how great friends each of them are and of the reunion we had. These bracelets keep the memories fresh in my mind like they each happened yesterday. They are my constant reminder of a time when everything was happy and loving and I was, almost, never upset or sad.

Thank you for the love <3    

Homework with a purpose

I recently got my application for working the summer at Johnsonburg in the mail. As I went over the application looking the the information I am going to need such as references, basic info and such, on the last page there are a series of questions. One the questions is "Using your own words, write a personal statement of faith." My first reaction was this is a piece of cake, I'll just look at my statement of faith from confirmation. Then I realized, that statement of faith reflects nothing because what I wrote was a typical s.o.f that was just me answering questions about what I believe. I wrote down what I knew session and everyone would want to hear, nothing from the heart.

So now I sit at the beginning of my journey, again, in writing my statement of faith. This time it's for a purpose greater than doing it just for session. I am doing this for me... and Johnsonburg, but mainly myself. I should be able to define what I believe in without superficial answers.

I have until the 28th to do it but I'm going to start now. This is amazing since i'm the worlds greatest procrastinator.

“I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?” -Ernest Hemingway

Sleep

Something I need.
Something I love.
Something I want.
Something I cannot get enough of.
Something I cannot have.
Something I underestimate.
Something I wait for.
Something that makes me happy.
Something that take me away.

"Sometimes the mystery of God needs to be shaken up every once in a while just to see whats left when the dust settles."

Memories

They hit you like a frying pan to the head as if you are in a classic cartoon. I've seen a person break down in tears, just by glancing at something that was once the possession of someone dear to their hearts. I have broken down just by looking at a picture that came up on my facebook's sidebar. Memories, you never know the affect they have on you until they do.

Homework

The luminous clouds of the night
beckoned to her as she drove on
the broken road of her dreams

following her against the night

The orbs brilliant brightness
encompassing the darkness
making night into day

Across the universe is where I am, silent.

Silent is the rain outside my window
Silent is the house in which I lay
But I still remember a time when
A simultaneousness hum of cicadas
filled the late summer's breeze
where it was you and me
Your kiss electricity on my lips

Poem Fragments

I have a really bad habit of getting fragments of poetry and not doing anything about them. So I decided just to compile them  here instead of having them take up space in my phone/ipod's memory.

October 10
"The orbs brilliant brightness
encompassing the darkness
making night into day"

"Your kiss is electricity on my lips"


October 4
"Silent is the rain outside my window
Silent is the house in which I lay"




August 3
"The luminous clouds of the night
beckoned to her as she drove on
the broken road of her dreams"

"A simultaneousness hum of cicadas
filled the late summer's breeze"

Wanted: A friend

I stand underneath the moon
hoping, dreaming, wishing I was not alone.
The world is a dark place
even under a moon that light up the night
like a spotlight on an empty stage.

You need someone by your side
if you want to get through the journey in one piece
You need a friend.
I need a friend.

A friend who I need no mask for
one who will give me that hug
even though I refuse that I want one
That is the time I need it most.

But for now, I feel alone.
Though I may not be alone,
the feeling is there.

It is a feeling that cannot be filled
with Her.
She cannot give me a hug
or tell me not to give up.

However, I cannot blame anyone but myself
I dug myself in this hole
this empty friendless hole
I push people away somehow
When they get too close to knowing
Knowing me.

It all boils down
to a cup of fear
with a pinch of anxiety
and a teaspoon of despair.

Awake My Soul

YouTube- Awake My Soul- Mumford & Sons

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don't know
My weakness I feel I must finally show

Lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all
But lend me your heart and I'll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep, totally free

Har har, har har, har har, har har

Awake my soul, awake my soul

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don't know
My weakness I feel I must finally show

Har har, har har, har har, har har

In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love, you invest your life
In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
And where you invest your love, you invest your life

Awake my soul, awake my soul
Awake my soul
For you were made to meet your maker

Awake my soul, awake my soul
Awake my soul
For you were made to meet your maker
You were made to meet your maker

Where you are is where I belong.

The Unwanted Visitor or Cold as Winter or Behind the Mask

Here it comes again.
Returning to me again like the snow in winter
And in ways it is so much like winter
Cold to the touch, seeping through my skin
Into my bones and into my being.
Without fail it is here again
To keep me . . .company.
I don't want it here.
Sadly, it isn't as easy to get rid of it
as it is to kick and unwanted friend off your couch
I wish it were that simple.

With it, it brings a collection of new masks to try on
which one best suits me
which one is the most convincing
a smile, tired, positive, teen angst.
Ooh, or perhaps a nice poker face.
Only it and I know the true emotions
Behind the mask.

The 100th post... and its a list

So I would like to eventually muster up the courage to record some of my songs and put them out there or at least cover other songs I enjoy playing on my guitar. So this is a list of songs I would like to eventually record.

Guitar:
-The Only Exception-Paramore
-Make You Feel My Love-Adele
-Honey, Let Me Sing You A Song- Matt Hires
-You and Me- Dave Matthews Band
-Wonderwall- Oasis
-Sunrise Sunsets- me
-It Is Only The Past- me
-We Are- me
-Small Steps, Giant Leaps-me

Piano:
-Boston-Augustana
-Colorblind-Counting Crows
-Hallelujah-Rufus Wainwright
-Eet-Regina Spektor
-Spring Holiday-me

Reading back at what I posted, I get really depressing before I go to bed. I do not think I could write anything that depressing right now.

I'm writing to an audience of n[one]

By You I Mean Me

What do you do
When there's nothing there
And empty heart and a cold stare
Falling apart piece by piece
There is no peace
Nothing but a gaping black hole
Sucking all the light out of life
Nothing can escape it
There is no use running from it
It will still be there waiting

You look for a life raft
Nothing is there
You try to grab onto something
There us only dark
You call for help
No one can hear you.
Music only makes the silence louder.

Despite all attempts
Judgment still judges you
Anger is still pissed off at you
Loneliness creeps in your corners
Fear still grabs your arm and won't let go
Resentment still sleeps in your stomach

Sunrise, Sunsets

We met in early June
Your smile lit up the room
Just like the sunbeams
Clearing away the rain
Outside

Your face
It makes me feel brand new

And I wonder how your souls fits to mine
Does it fit like a bird fits in the sky
Wildflowers are growing all over my skin
Their roots are burrowing deep within

They touch the deepest parts of my heart
Like your hand running through my hair

My fear is lost in your eyes
Cause I know your not just some other guy.

The world could be set aflame
And I wouldn't care
As long as you were standing there
Next to me holding my hand
Watching as the world fades
To gray
Sunrise
Sunsets
The world still starts again
Sunrise
Sunsets
The world keeps on turning

i got really bored

200. My middle name is: May

199. I was born on: May 10, 1994

198. I am really: lonely


197. My cell phone company is: Verizon

196. My eye color is: blue

195. My shoe size is: 8.5-9

194. My ring size is: 8?


193. My height is: 5'5

192. I am allergic to: nothing


191. I was born in: Brick, Nj

190. I live in: Fork-ed River


189. The last book I read was: don't remember, wish I could.


188. My bed is: warm


187: One thing you hate about yourself: lack of courage in situations


186. One thing you’ve always secretly wanted: a tree house


185. The best popcicles: blue :)


184. Corn: sweet


183. Ever used a typewriter? yes


182. Did you ever have a NEOPETS account? ha yeah.

181. Plaid: okay


180. The Price Is Right:  kind of boring


179. My favorite Holiday is:  Christmas

178. The perfect kiss: ...:)


177. The last three cd's I bought are: Twilight Soundtrack, Emmy Rosum, Wicked


176. Last song that made me cry was: I Didn't Know I Loved You So Much from RepoMan


175. Are you single or taken?:  single


174. If your taken, by who?: .....


173. Do you like being single/taken?: i think i'd rather be taken


172. Camping means: memories <3


171. Your longest relationship lasted: ...

170. What did you do last night?: Skyped


169. If you were a pro artist, what’s the first thing you’d draw? The view from the dock at Jburg


168. Mario or Luigi: Luigi

167. Mix Matched Socks: cute


166. Thanksgiving means: family


165. Old School: sometimes


164. Been on vacation without your family: i would consider Jburg a vacation

163. How many Disney movies do you own? all the classics except for Cinderella


162. What makes you smile: hugs


161. First thing you do when you get home from school: pass out or facebook


160. Your name in Pig Latin: Abi?


159. Best form of entertainment: small parties with friends


158. Do you use a certain towel: nope


157. Paris is: beautiful


156. Musicals are: what i do in my spare time and take over my life from December - Feburary


155. How much change do you have in your pocket: i don't have pockets

154. You’re obsessed with: music

153. Dixie Chicks: ehh

152. WWE: no

151. Means of Transportation: bike

150. Double Decker buses: never been on one

149. Ever been in a Limo: nope

148. Closest thing to you on your left: Beatles Anthologies

147. Best kind of soup:cream of mushroom

146. Your earliest memory: being in a ballerina costume on my front lawn

145. Have you ever been in a car accident: no

144. Birthday Candle Wishes: i wish they came true

143. Sex before marriage?not planning on it

142. Love at first sight? totally believe in it.

141. Luck? all a matter of mind

140. Fate?... maybe

139. Yourself?ok...

138. Aliens? yes

137. Heaven? I do have my doubts

136. Hell?doubts again

135. Ghosts? YEAH!

134. Horoscopes?ehh

133. Soul mates? yes. yes.  YES


::Which is Better?::

132. Tim Horton's or Starbucks: starbucks

131. Fast or Slow:slow

130. Snowmen or Snow forts: snow forts

129. Hugs or Kisses:hugs

128. Drunk or High: . . . niether

127. Phone or Online: online

126. Red heads or Black hair: both

125. Blonds or Brunettes: brunettes

124. Hot or cold: hot

123. Summer or winter: winter

122. Comedy or Horror movies: comedy

121. Chocolate or vanilla:vanilla

120. Night or Day: night

119. Oranges or Apples: apples

118. Curly or Straight hair: straight with a wave in it.

117. Present or Card: card from the heart

116. Abortion:your choice

115. Backstabbers:not my favorite people

114. Parents: get on my nerves but i love them

113. Suicide: horrible

112. Rap Music:ehh

111. Love:<3


[Last time I]

110- last time you ate without a utensil?dinner

109. Wrote an essay: friday

108. Went swimming: jburg.

107. Did something you didn’t want to: school

106. Broke something: today

105. Flew a kite: years ago

104. Watched a video on Youtube: today

103. Went out of town: thursday

102. Ate something:3 hours ago

101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while:October 9th

100. Cried in front of someone: august

99. Grew: as year ago

98. Ate Pineapple: 2 weeks

97. Hugged someone: today

96. Voluntarily hung out with your family: yesterday

95. Kicked a ball: i kicked a stuffed bunny today...

94. Used a Video Camera: last week

93. Dressed up:picture day

[ WHO ]

92. Who swears the most:dad

91. Who is the most adorable: Kat

90. Who is the ditsiest person you know: Abby 2 :) its all love

89. Who makes you laugh the most: LT family

87. Who eats the most?any teenage boy

86. Who does stupid things with you: Kels

85. Who makes fun of you:my sister

84. Who are you jealous of:people who get to see everyone that they love

[MORE]

83. The last movie I watched:  end of Invictus

82. What I don't understand is: change

81. The reason school sucks is because: grade dictate where you go in life

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: idk. or k

79. Have you ever dissected a frog? yeah

78. Something you own, and you don’t know why: ...?

77. The best smell: warm cinnamon and home

76. The best feeling:being hugged by a person you haven't seen in a while

75. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my room

74. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: adventures of next summer

74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: school

73. Tomorrow: should be good

72. Today: was stressful

71. This Summer: the best in my life

70. Next Week: Halloween then a 4 day weekend with LTs hopefully

69. What food do you buy when you see a movie at theater: junior mints

68. Do you make things up to make your stories more interesting: nope.

67. People call me: Abigail, Abi, Abi the Rabbi, Ab, Abs, Abba dabba, Ab-I, Abi 1 :)

66. Do you have any regrets? not anymore

65. What are you afraid of? big change

64. Who do you miss? My LT family but I'll see them soon

63. Are you happy? yes.

62. The person who knows the most about me is: Amy

61. Your closest family member is: my mom

60. The most difficult thing i did in the last past week is:come to certain conclusions

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: no

58. Are you insecure: at times

57. Would you eat green eggs and ham? yes. and I have

56. My zodiac sign is:Taurus

55. The first person I talked to today was: my mom

54. First time you had a crush: real one? 7th

53. The one person who can't hide things from me? no one

52. Last time someone said something that you were thinking?: today

51. Right now I am talking to: no one

50. What is your dream job?Music director for a Brodway show

49. First job? babysitter

48. I have/will get a job at?Jburg :)

47. I have these pets: dog

46. I hope: I can see people soon.

45. The worst sound in the world:shoe squeaking 

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: parents

43. Will you buy that special card for $15 to save 10% at a store?: no

42. Like wearing Hats? i use to

41. Best number from 8-29: 12

40. Favorite day: friday nights

39. My boy/girlfriend is: i am single

38. Tape:useful

37. Boxers:surprisingly comfortable

36. When I wake up in the morning: roll out of bed

35. Florida or Hawaii: Hawaii

34. Your favorite picture: i have a lot

33. My favorite pieces of clothing are: jeans

32. My favorite sport is:softball and field hockey

31. Last time I cried: thursday

30. My friends are: amazing

29. My computer is: slow

28. The school I go to is: PAA

27. Last person I got mad at: my mom

26. Can you draw a straight line without a ruler?: yes

25. Pens or Pencils: pens

24. Do you do things, just to annoy people?: aahahaha yes

23. Stopping for directions: depends on where i am and who i am with

22. The all-time best movie is:Tower of Terror

21. The all-time best thing in the world is:Johnsonburg

20. Your favorite song of the moment: Two Coins by Dispatch

19. Mini Eggs are: mini?

18. The most annoying person you know is:no clue

17. I lose respect for people who: don't respect people or their bodies

16. The movies I have cried at are: Click, My sisters keeper,

15. Closest friend: don't have one that is the closest

14. Overalls: cool

13. Favorite web site: facebook

12. I want to be: a person who makes a difference

11. The worst pain I was ever in was: when i broke my arm

10. My favorite word is: presh or golden

9. My room is: clean

8. My favorite celebrity is: Julia Roberts

WHERE ARE SIX AND SEVEN?

5. My weakness is: my masks

4. What I like about the opposite sex: Personality, laugh, smile, eyes

3. Who broke your heart: no one

2. One thing that makes you feel great: music,meditation, sleep

1. You filled out 200 questions because: I was bored

Florence + The Machine - Dog Days Are Over (2010 Version)

My Halloween costume

Raw Emotion

I was really that blind
That I could not see
how much you meant to me.
The phone call shook me to my senses
And I'm glad it did.
I can't bare to lose another
In this life I carry.
I got caught up in the petty things
that don't even matter
once things are all said and done.

I cannot even find a single reason

that kept me from believing'.

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Blind I am

and blind I will be

So take me up into the trees

Over the lakes and rivers and streets.

Over the people I will never meet.

For they are down there.

and I am up here.

floating above them

making it rain with my tears.

And when I smile the sun comes out

to brighten the peoples days until tonight.

But the sun cannot stay for forever.
and neither can I
Because everyone knows in the end
we all will die.

I was just recently informed that my dad was in a car accident this afternoon and is at the hospital getting checked for internal bleeding, broken bones and stuff like that. These poem sprang from that emotion. Sorry for the morbid end of the second poem.

Remember

I need to remember that I am always loved.

Poetry & Fustration

God of wonder and God of wrath
You make a mess Your toys on their paths
God of soul and God of sound
You help the broken child get around
-----------------------------------------------
You aren't here within
because I won't let you come in.
I have the strongest doubt
But then You come back about
And I couldn't be happier.
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I have no right to question you
But why do you do let these things happen
My dreams are crushed so quickly
under the palm of his hand.
And overwhelming sense of hate
emanates through their pores
They say I love you
But I choose not to hear their falsehoods.
Their promises are so easily broken
And once again my trust is shaking
I'll walk for cancer
I'll walk for hunger
but I won't walk for you.
Shake your fist the other way
I'm not listening anymore.
There is no tolerance is this house

"Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life" ~ Berthold Auerbach

The foggy handprint on the window will fade, but the handprint you left on my heart will forever be there.

Colorblind

I am color...blind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am
taffy stuck, tongue tied
Stuttered shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am...fine
I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding
I am
colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am...fine
I am.... fine
I am fine

links: Counting Crows
Natalie Walker

The song is more for the music/voice rather than the lyrics but I personally find the song moving.

The words clung to my lips like carnage in the jaws of a beast.

Gives me hope

Knowing that family isn't just blood.

Let's runaway

I need you now
more than ever
We can leave
this house together
Hand in hand
You and I
We will both
still survive
You are still as sweet
and I am just as humble
even though the ball we hold
Still may fumble
Like the tears that roll
down our cheeks
Our feet will run
Down the street
Hand in hand
You and I
Will will survive.

Sitting

Talking to friends

A slight breeze blows

through the window

and gently touches my skin

The sweet smell of newly fallen rain

is like candy to a young boy

You are there

The feeling of
worry
doubt
fear
All for this upcoming year

its overwhelming

I only have myself to blame
Getting so tied up
Into the things around me
I much to easily
forget about You

I try not to
but everything is just
clouds in my mind

So for You
I apologize for the cold shoulder
I apologize or not putting You first
You are the one I should be paying attention to
not the newest
clothes
music
drama
gossip
For they are nothing compared to YOU

It Is Only the Past

Your smell still lingers here
It's so intoxicating
Going through my mind
And digging out the memories
You on my lips
Feeling everything
Oh how i need your love
With me now

Then I wake up
It was only the past
never going back there again
It was only the past
We have better things to do
then wonder of the could have be
should have been
would have been
Just keep on looking to tomorrow


Everything so real
now is only a distant memory
The pictures on my wall
call me to the past
You and me laying there
not really thinking
of what comes next

Then I wake up
It was only the past
never going back there again
It was only the past
We have better things to do
then wonder of the could have be
should have been
would have been
Just keep on looking to tomorrow

We Are

We are (6x)
We are the world
We are the world
We are everything
We are the planets floating in the sky
to the snowflake on your nose

We are (6x)
We are the world
We are the world
We are everything in between
we are
we are the trees rooted in the ground
touching our soul
deep within
we are the budding flower on a warm spring day
we are the the summer and the bright winters day

we are (6x)
We are the world
We are the world

And everything is changing
we are rearranging
the feelings we never showed
we are we are the the world
spinning out of orbit
we are
WE ARE
we are one in the spirit
we are connected by our souls
we are connect by our laces

We Are

we are the world

Soul of an Artist

"It comes along with the soul of an Artist- the business man sees winning and losing, but the artist sees all the shades of gray and competes only to fulfill that potential." ~ Tadd

Poem 1

Taking notice to where I'm going

But not daring to look back

I take my stones

and set my path

Not knowing where to go

or what to do

I find myself enveloped in You

Your prescence is overwhelmingly true

it helps me to love you

My love is Your love

and Your love,

mine

Poem 2

Confusing are the paths we take

We trip

We fall

We scrap our knees

We bleed

and cry

We feel pain

But doing all this helps us

feel the rain

The rain is Your tears

that flows from Your heavenly eyes

Each one

A drop of grace

Sustaining our lives.

Poem 3

Love knows no bounds

as I stand before You

I lay down my pain and sorrows away

Love knows no bounds

The boundaries that we make

keep us from You.

Poem 4

I feel You

Do You feel me?

We walk our lives together

as one family.

We pass peoples's faces

and we know people's lives

We have seen the truth

within their eyes

Your everlasting life is the best kind of poetry

You can give me

Your soul flows through my pen

It might just be

ink touching paper

But in my heart

It is You touching my life

and it is just the same.

Poem 5

As I touch Your children

the trees and their creatures

I truly know You

and You truly know me.

You are a fountain of creativity

bursting through the cracks

in the walls of my spirit

I know You and You I

and together

-we cry.

Poem 6

I want to run in Your garden

I want to live like a child

You help the soul grow

that it will help with the heartbreaks

when the heart breaks

You mend my soul

When I do not feel You

I know You are there

In my heart every hour

and in every fiber of my being

I feel You now.

Are You Here?

You are here
But I do not feel You
You are here
But I do not hear You

Only in a brief moment
Your prescence overwhelms me
In the wink of a
Beauiful soul

I capture and remember it
for the times I will feel weak
You are a life raft to cling to
In the constant stormy seas of my life

Day 13

A fictional book. . . .

A fictional book that I need to read is Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd. I bought it today at Atlantic books and got 20% off because it was for school. It was nice having the discount especially because i was also buying another book for summer reading, Snow Falling on Cedars by David Gutterson.

Day 12

Tickling my fancy right now...

the hours till Johnsonburg

1 day38 hours2280 minutes136800 seconds

http://www.timeanddate.com/counters/customcounter.html?month=8&day=15&year=2010&hour=14&min=00&sec=00&p0=861

Day 11

A photo of me taken recently

Day 10

A photo taken 10 years ago...

A Polaroid picture. Kathryn. Shelia. Abi

Day 9

A Picture I have Taken...

Caroline. May 29 2010."Bad to the Bone"

Day 8

this movie made me incredibly sad. 3 hours of crying+me explaining the movie to my sister = me looking like a crying, babbling idiot.

Day 7

A photo that makes me happy

This makes me happy :D

Day 6

Whatever tickles my fancy?

Well right now I miss my LT brothers and sisters immensely. They are the best group of people I could have never asked for. Choosing the path that no one I knew had taken before was most definitely the best decision I could have ever made. Its something that I'm sure I will NEVER regret. I miss them every time I hear Dynamite by Taio Cruz play on the radio or on my computer. They have been my biggest support net behind me and they are even here for me now after LT life. I count the days till I see them again and will probably do that for every time I will see them next.

I love you Katie

I love you Matt

I love you Julia

I love you Julie

I love you Kim

I love you Amber

I love you Abby

I love you Robin

I love you Zak

I love you Steve

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Day 5

My favorite Quotation!

I am big on quoting songs but an actual quote that I just love is:

"Don't worry about it, you're Golden" ~ Brendan Gilsenan

Day 4

My favorite book.

there is one book I could read over and over again. Its a Young Adult Fiction book called Peeps.

Peeps isn't your average run of the mill vampire story. The term vampire isn't exactly what I would describe the infected ones in this book. They remind me of super strength light fearing zombies. What I like most about it is that the events that occur in this book could actually happen.

Another book I really enjoyed reading was So Yesterday. Both books have the same author. His name is Scott Westerfeld. He is also the author of the Uglies series and The Midnighters series

Day 3

My favorite Television Show has to be The Big Bang Theory. I watch it because it makes me feel smart when I know what they are talking about.

Bazinga!

They should put a warning on pill bottles that says "WARNING: May cause you to get in an argument with your spouse that could potentially end your marriage"

proceed with caution

Day 2

My Favorite movie. . . hmmm.

I like almost any movie that I come across.

here are my top 5 movies:

1. The Devil Wears Prada

2. Finding Nemo

3. Jungle2Jungle

4. Parent Trap (1998)

5. Sleepless in Seattle

Day 1

My favorite song changes from day to day depending on how I feel that day. for the past week it has changed between these 5 songs:

1. Dog Days Are Over by Florence and the Machine

2. Life Less Ordinary by Carbon Leaf

3. Ooh La La by The Faces

4. Cosmic Love by Florence and The Machine

5. Forever and Always by Taylor Swift

Right now, my favorite is Cosmic Love.

30 days of blogging

I would really like to finish this.

It will start today, 8/2/10, and end on 9/15/10 since I will be away for about 2 weeks.

Day 01 — Your favorite song

Day 02 — Your favorite movie

Day 03 — Your favorite television program

Day 04 — Your favorite book

Day 05 — Your favorite quote

Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy

Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad

Day 09 — A photo you took

Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago

Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently

Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 13 — A fictional book

Day 14 — A non-fictional book

Day 15 — A fanfic

Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)

Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)

Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 19 — A talent of yours

Day 20 — A hobby of yours

Day 21 — A recipe

Day 22 — A website

Day 23 — A YouTube video

Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 25 — Your day, in great detail

Day 26 — Your week, in great detail

Day 27 — This month, in great detail

Day 28 — This year, in great detail

Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days

Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

People I Know

Over the past three weeks I have made bonds that will last a lifetime. Who could have ever guess that three weeks ago I only had 1 sister. Now, I have 10 new sisters and brothers. I could have never imagined such a bond could be formed in such a short time. I have a deep feeling of sadness when they are not around and I am counting the days till I see them again.

2nd Families Rock

My Personal guide to Webdings

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