Really?

So I leaving for 9 weeks. I thought 9 weeks was a long time but apparently it isn't, because if it was I would think that people would recognize the fact i was leaving a but more seriously than a "have fun, don't kill yourself" attitude. I would expect this if I was going away for 2 weeks but not 9. 9 weeks is more than 2 months. Seriously? Maybe I'm just blowing this out of proportion but i would have thought that people would  want to speak to me and not just push it away or at the very least make the effort to see me. I wasn't expecting a parade, just a goodbye, But yep, I thought about it too much and now I'm sitting here venting these feeling, crying my bloody eyes out. I mean, so much can happen in that time. I could die in 9 weeks, God willing I won't though. But the point is still there and I am just feeling really sad about this whole thing. I truly feel that no one really loves me. My friend Julia gave me more of a goodbye and I'll be seeing her in 5 days. What the hell?