YAB meetings

I love going to YAB meetings... when they don't talk about youth. It is becoming apparent to me that every single time I am in attendance at a YAB meeting I find out all I am doing wrong as a "youth." And you know what, it sucks. It really does, and I am  the kind of person who tries to do everything right all the time. It is just how my mind works, I strive for the best and to be the best.  However, going to these meetings is like a slap on thew wrist and nights like these I actually come home and cry. I try so hard to be this model of a perfect citizen, student, child and friend, but tonight really shows me that I'm far from it.  Most times when they are talking about a certain topic I am almost positive that they, being the board, have no idea what this is really doing to me. I really haven't expressed my concern publicly or privately but have kept it condensed inside my mind. but tonight, because this has affected me to the point of tears, I just need to get it out there. And if no one reads this, its fine, I just needed to speak my mind somewhere. God, this sucks.